slice

well they are going in for the slice on 11-14-11. then lets hope after 6 months the twitching will be over. and then i can drive. there is only a 10% chance of a stroke and a 6% chance i could die. a 60% it will work. lol that and i wont be able to work for 4-6 weeks.

Crack an egg

well ive had a few tests done, one involved a tube run from my crotch, through my heart, to my head. there they put one side, then the other side of my head to sleep, seeing if i could speak with either side and testing my memory left and right. hopefully with the results of the test before the end of the year they are going to cut a 2 inch hole in the side of my head and take out all of the bad parts in my brain stopping my seizures forever. back to the fire.......... the asshole next door has proceeded to kill 12 of my bushes. my burning bush, my azalias, some of my trees, he just kept cutting things flat to the ground, not even a stump. just flat to the ground? i wanted to dump gallons of bleach all over his yard, and of course i couldn't hold it in any more, i exploded! and i was the bad guy? he had been doing us a favor?

Everything should burn

Well we hadn't cut the grass so far the entire year so far.... It didn't look great but I still liked it. We had rabbits, lilies, roses, and more flowers and life every where. Then my mom said that she was going to have a neighbor and some guys come "clean it up". All they did was kill it all, nothing is taller than 4 inches now including some of the trees. My wild roses, that had belonged to my grandmother, are dead. The lilies have been ripped out, the lambsears are mowed flat, the Chinese lanterns disappeared? The list keeps going. Everything that I have known for decades, it even hurts to add an S to decade, is dead. Now my heart truly bleeds like the flower I have always loved. The even mutilated my Christmas tree almost turning it into a palm tree. I want to just pour gas and ignite the yard to end the pain. But of course if I say anything they are the ones to feel the pain and if I don't say anything they are still the ones to cry? And yet I am the one that lost all the things I have loved yet again.

well maybe they will fix me head

they took me off my pills wired me to a machine made me have a seizure then un plugged me when i was done, now im back on the pill waiting to possiby have the surgery in a month or two

mother earth & father time.......

well 5 more days till im 26, no idea what im doing yet? Dont even know if im doing anything. Lets see if anyone besides my mom remembers besides facebook

stupid doctors

Well first thing they asked me was how the surgery went...
They actually thought i had already had my head cut open and healed? WTF!?! I still have all my hair? So the guy tapped my knees, felt my hands, had me close my eyes and touch my nose, and said okay come back in 6 months. Oh? and did i mention this cost me $40?

Doing better...

I think I'm doing better? lol stopped cutting my arm, it's not like I ever did anything huge anyway, never really bled, just little scratches, My mom's coming back from brazil tomorrow, and then I start going to the Dr. to find out whether or not they are going to cut my head open. Let's see what else? My old friend B.K. moved in so I'm having fun, but thats only short term since then he's going back south to his home town to get away from his financial problems. Its nice to have him back again after almost a year of not talking to him. I think he got uncomfortable with how close we were getting so he needed to break it off. Hmm? The electric company wants to cut off our power? There are animals in the walls? The shower is still broken? I'm still waiting to see when we are losing the house? I have no idea how much money is wanted or needed? And i have to walk to work today......


I am doing better.....