Everything should burn

Well we hadn't cut the grass so far the entire year so far.... It didn't look great but I still liked it. We had rabbits, lilies, roses, and more flowers and life every where. Then my mom said that she was going to have a neighbor and some guys come "clean it up". All they did was kill it all, nothing is taller than 4 inches now including some of the trees. My wild roses, that had belonged to my grandmother, are dead. The lilies have been ripped out, the lambsears are mowed flat, the Chinese lanterns disappeared? The list keeps going. Everything that I have known for decades, it even hurts to add an S to decade, is dead. Now my heart truly bleeds like the flower I have always loved. The even mutilated my Christmas tree almost turning it into a palm tree. I want to just pour gas and ignite the yard to end the pain. But of course if I say anything they are the ones to feel the pain and if I don't say anything they are still the ones to cry? And yet I am the one that lost all the things I have loved yet again.

well maybe they will fix me head

they took me off my pills wired me to a machine made me have a seizure then un plugged me when i was done, now im back on the pill waiting to possiby have the surgery in a month or two

mother earth & father time.......

well 5 more days till im 26, no idea what im doing yet? Dont even know if im doing anything. Lets see if anyone besides my mom remembers besides facebook

stupid doctors

Well first thing they asked me was how the surgery went...
They actually thought i had already had my head cut open and healed? WTF!?! I still have all my hair? So the guy tapped my knees, felt my hands, had me close my eyes and touch my nose, and said okay come back in 6 months. Oh? and did i mention this cost me $40?

Doing better...

I think I'm doing better? lol stopped cutting my arm, it's not like I ever did anything huge anyway, never really bled, just little scratches, My mom's coming back from brazil tomorrow, and then I start going to the Dr. to find out whether or not they are going to cut my head open. Let's see what else? My old friend B.K. moved in so I'm having fun, but thats only short term since then he's going back south to his home town to get away from his financial problems. Its nice to have him back again after almost a year of not talking to him. I think he got uncomfortable with how close we were getting so he needed to break it off. Hmm? The electric company wants to cut off our power? There are animals in the walls? The shower is still broken? I'm still waiting to see when we are losing the house? I have no idea how much money is wanted or needed? And i have to walk to work today......


I am doing better.....

I Told Him

Well i told him, he didnt ask..... I Told Him!? He was happy, and he was glad about the good news for me. But he was also upset that he finaly realized that now that he doesnt live with me anymore he is cut off from the 15% employee discount at walgreens... Its only the immediate family that LIVE with the employees. So he said he would go to CVS...

Surgery with an Ice cream Scoop

Well the dr. said I may be curable... The need to run some tests, the first of which would be putting me in a padded room for a week, as I'm taken off my meds, and wait for a seizure to come with wires glued to my head.... The if the tests are good, they will cut out the scar from the left side that is on the center of speech and memory.

Mitch has gone to spend time with his friend again, hasn't even asked me how it went, what they said, what might be done?